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Thanks for your beautiful story. I know well the need to find a lost one in the world. My partner passed away 4 years ago, and I still look for pickup trucks of the same make, model and color. I sends a jolt of life back intto my heart. I seek out older men in crowds, those with gray hair, a certain build, and a way about them that says I am here, and I tread this Earth. They act like the paddles on a defibrillator to reactivate my being. Is it just memories, or something else? I will never know, but i do known that there are days when it keeps.me.going..

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Sadly beautiful, beautifully sad. Your eloquence creates welcomed rips in my heart.

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Congratulations, Terry, on this publication. I know you have many poignant stories to tell, some of which you have shared with me. This one I hadn't heard, not in this detail. It is heartbreaking and so beautifully written. I love how you let go of that patient, the young daredevil, and said, simply, "Be careful." So much packed behind those words which we all get to see here. Thank you.

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The seasons, and your vivid descriptions were stunning. Loss, is (for me) like The Grand Canyon. There are parts I think I know, parts I accept, and the vastness of it, leaves me wondering and sad. Sky...and yet, you kept going, caring for others and now letting us (as readers) into that window of deep sadness and the life after. Beautiful. Thank you.

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Thank you for sharing your heart with readers here, and with your patients. It matters so much.

Thank you for sharing your experience with readers.

Your self-restraint with your injured young patient is a good reminder.

xxx

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Thank you for sharing. I lost my only son before Christmas and my husband 2 years ago and my dog right before Thanksgiving. As I sit here alone with my grief I saw a notification from your writing and realized I am not alone in this deep rabbit hole of grief and sadness. I am glad you found some peace in helping others.

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So sorry to hear. <3

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Terry, what a powerful piece. ❤️❤️❤️ Thank you so much for sharing it. It brought up from my emotional well so many feelings of loss. I am so guilty of projecting onto others (younger family members) stories of those experiences rather than guard the advice and protect them with the simple “be careful.” How wise. 🙏🙏🙏

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This is beautiful and heartbreaking. Thank you so much for sharing. My son is 14 and every time he kisses me unexpectedly, I wonder about this very thing. Thank you so much for your story.

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I am so very sorry for your loss, particularly of Sky. Thanks for sharing this part of your story.

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I am so sorry for your loss and this was heart wrenching to read - you've written about the pain so vividly, I can tell the pain is still fresh and bright. The pic of you with your son also says so much, just the loving, trusting way you are standing together. Extremely poignant.

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I am sorry for your losses.

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Beautiful writing and story. Thank you.

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So beautifully told, thank you for sharing your seasons of grief with such eloquence and grace.

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This is such a beautiful essay. I love the photos of Sky and can feel his personality and energy through them. Thank you for sharing him with us. ❤️

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Hard-earned eloquence and beauty -- I feel privileged to read this.

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How poignant and beautiful. Your bravery and heart in every word..

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