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Mar 2, 2022Liked by Sari Botton, Naz Riahi (she/her)

This is a thought-provoking piece, and it resonated with me, esp the para about the ex-husband and your "selfishness." IMO, it's not possible to be "a woman who lives, truly and wholly for herself and the work of her mind" and be in a committed relationship with another live-in romantic partner. Partnership implies that you will think of the other at least some, if not most, of the time, and be willing to make sacrifices of time and money and presence. I think one reason the "living apart together" movement has gained steam recently is that it's the only way women can truly live for themselves and have any hope of sustaining a relationship.

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Living apart, together! Thank you for reading and this note.

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Mar 10Liked by Sari Botton, Naz Riahi (she/her)

When I visited Walden Pond, I thought about Thoreau going off by himself to live in his cabin, except for occasional trips into Concord for his mother to do his laundry. He’s hailed as a genius, but he was basically a man of privilege who had the luxury of sequestering himself to write.

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His mother also sent him back with cookies. Lol.

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😂

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So many men have been able to make art because a woman in their life did every domestic thing for them.

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Mar 10Liked by Sari Botton, Naz Riahi (she/her)

Indeed we do exist and we are growing in numbers though mostly and happily without relationships.

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💕

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Mar 3, 2022Liked by Sari Botton, Naz Riahi (she/her)

A wonderful piece. You’ve perfectly articulated that feeling that sits just beneath my consciousness, something I couldn’t put my finger on, something I wanted to name so as to acknowledge it. Thank you!

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Awww. Thank you for this comment and for reading.

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Mar 2, 2022Liked by Sari Botton, Naz Riahi (she/her)

Hi Naz, thank you so much for this piece. It really resonated with me. Thank you for your honestly in the last para - that its not all tied up, its still messy and unfocused, but we keep going on. Thank you.

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Thank you so much for reading and this note. And, yes! We keep going.

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Mar 2, 2022Liked by Sari Botton, Naz Riahi (she/her)

What a wonderful piece and a worthy quest. We have all seen that woman. Almost never when looking directly, but on certain days when the light is just so, in the liminal glimpse as we pass the mirror.

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Oh, Kate, I love this... Thank you for reading.

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Mar 3, 2022Liked by Sari Botton, Naz Riahi (she/her)

Oh, to be fallible and have so much faith in such a beautiful idea. Being a woman, to me, has often felt like an existence of longing for peace while also longing for pieces of myself to come through and carry me through whatever it may be simultaneously. X

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Oh such a beautiful perspective. Thank you for sharing.

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Mar 10Liked by Sari Botton, Naz Riahi (she/her)

What a powerful essay that really got me thinking. I’m 52, never had kids. I’ve always been very much a loner, which means that I’ve only had 1 significant other that I wanted to be around for more than a few months. I’ve definitely been given the “you’re selfish” label many times over the years just because I didn’t choose to saddle myself to a man and/or have kids.

I don’t think I’ve ever even watched a movie in which the woman is alone and happy. We need more of those in our lives to show the generations below us that this is possible and more than ok. I’m still with my partner, who is also female, but she (outgoing, loves nature and people) is the opposite of me (loner, current homebody). We enjoy a quiet. pleasurable, contemplative existence but this piece has finally allowed me to realize that this is also more than ok.

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Thank you for sharing, I’m so glad it resonated with you. 💕

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Nov 29, 2023·edited Nov 29, 2023Liked by Sari Botton, Naz Riahi (she/her)

I love this. Thank you for writing about women. And speaking of biographies, after reading your piece about a man who had a cook, I am waiting passionately for your memoir.

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I actually have a collection of short stories coming out next year!

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Thank you. I needed this cogent, honest, and resonant reflection. I know what living for oneself feels like. Good and bad.

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Mar 7, 2022Liked by Sari Botton, Naz Riahi (she/her)

Wonderful piece Naz. Thank you for writing it. You might be interested to see that in "Inventing Anna," streaming on Netflix (Shonda Rhimes), the journalist, who is married and pregnant, lives for her story, for her work, and has the full support of her husband. Such a departure from so many film and tv portrayals of women devoted to their work/art and their resentful husbands where we are supposed to identify with his resentment, not her devotion.

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Thank you, Angela. I did watch Inventing Anna and loved it! I found that the journalist was constantly being told by her husband that she should put the pregnancy first. He just wasn't forcing her. But the expectation was there. Thank you so much for reading this and the note!

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Interesting Naz..I get your impression of him. I was stuck by how his pressure completely failed to move her--she was going to do what she needed to do no matter what. I loved that.

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Mar 6, 2022Liked by Sari Botton, Naz Riahi (she/her)

Naz - thank you for so powerfully, thoughtfully, vulnerability sharing your chapter of the storybook we all have a chapter in. Thank you for yet another masterful piece!

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