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Sari Botton's avatar

Thanks to those who noticed and mentioned the typo. I apologize. (I'm doing a lot.) I have fixed it.

Marcia Bradley's avatar

I really appreciated how Irwin swung back and forth between the past and the more recent past and the present. I'd dare to suggest that the cottage may be sold but it will never be gone from the Irwin and Fran special story.

Irwin Epstein's avatar

Thank you Marcia. I asked our broker to share it with the new owners so they have a sense of the provenance. That feels important to me. Dare to dare.

Elena Brunn's avatar

Thank you, Irwin, for this beautiful tribute to Fran and to your marriage.

Michele Laux's avatar

What a lovely and poignant story. I so appreciate Irwin having the courage and strength to share it. If he extends this into a memoir please let us know. Thank you!

Irwin Epstein's avatar

Guess what Michelle! I’m already on it. And while this is not a day I feel like pitching, if you like my way of memoir writing you ‘d probably like my book. Many women do.

Sue Sutherland-Wood's avatar

Such a tender and well-told story. It's brave to write so openly about very personal things.

Fran sounds larger-than-life amazing. Lucky to meet <3

Irwin Epstein's avatar

Thank you Sue. Today is not a day to pitch but you might like my book as well. It’s targeted to men but women like it too. That openness also made me persona non grata at the school where I taught for 35 years. It’s risky but it’s true.

Ali's avatar

Becoming a persona non grata can be a laudable achievement if pursued at a stultifying fossilized institution.

I have to believe that some crabs really do escape the bucket!

Irwin Epstein's avatar

I don’t take pride in that Ali. In fact, I find it extremely sad. Crabs have very small brains, no minds, and heartless hearts.

Ali's avatar

I have also worked with those types. Its absolutely amazing to be too old to get stuck working with saboteurs.

I now embrace being persona au gratin. 🧀

Edward Renehan's avatar

This is superb writing. Thank you.

Irwin Epstein's avatar

Thank you Edward. This is not a day to pitch but I think you’d like my book.

Karen Davis's avatar

Irwin what a wonderful story of love and devotion, especially that you had 32 years together.

Karen Davis's avatar

I can understand why you both fell in love with each other.

Debbie Weil's avatar

A lovely piece of writing; thank you Irwin! Your self-awareness, mixed in with your grief, are so illuminating. You made improvements to the cottage… but you weren’t sure why. I miss Fran too, after reading this.

Irwin Epstein's avatar

I love that Debbie. I loved her so and still want others to. I’m starting another memoir about Fran, me and cancer. Stay tooned.

Alon's avatar

Thank you for sharing this wonderful story.

Bette's avatar

So good to hear from you again. What an incredible love story!

Roshni Robert's avatar

Got me crying first thing in the morning!! What a beautiful story.

Irwin Epstein's avatar

Me too!🤷🏼‍♂️ so I wont apologize.

Lisa St. Lou's avatar

I almost skipped this one for fear it would be a sappy take on the movie by the same name. So glad I didn’t. What a beautiful ode to a lifelong relationship of pure love. Thank you Irwin. What an inspiring and heartfelt read.

Irwin Epstein's avatar

Sorry about that Lisa. It didn’t even occur to me. I guess I repressed the movie. Glad you didn’t let it prevent you from dipping your toes in the water again.

Wendy Goodman's avatar

Lovely ❤️💔

Amy Tuthill's avatar

I spent summers as a young girl with my Grandmother in her sweet cottage in Lavalette.

The water was so clean and I remember picking up horseshoe crabs. What a magical time. I’m glad you have those memories with your beloved as well.

Irwin Epstein's avatar

And “estuaries” is such a lovely word I never got to use. But how nice for you.

Amy Tuthill's avatar

Use it now. It’s the cradle of life-a nursery for the oceans. They must be protected. Every chemical you use on your lawn washes into it. Hebden Cove in Virginia Beach where I lived in the 60’s is now a dead zone and a scary green color. No crabs, no oysters. Time for The Lorax to speak for all of it!!!

Irwin Epstein's avatar

Thank you. You reminded me of watching little crabs moving sideways to return to the surf. I’m sure that’s a lesson for life but I can’t figure out what it is.

🤷🏼‍♂️🙏🏻🪷

Amy Tuthill's avatar

Ghost crabs…, also fiddler crabs in the estuaries of the Chesapeake Bay in Virginia. So many memories…, the meaning for me in my 67th years is how to save what is fast disappearing.

Irwin Epstein's avatar

Amy. I share your concerns. I worry too. But I have no lawn. I live in NYC For me, using it would be pretentious and phoney. Another form of pollution.

Peggy Mandell's avatar

Hi Irwin. I'm shaking with sobs and joy reading your remarkable essay. And recognition, having written my own debut memoir (And Always One More Time) about the death of my first husband and marriage to the tenderhearted TCNJ professor who loved me back to life. I just forwarded your essay to this tenderhearted professor, now 83 and lying in a hospital bed, having had another brush with mortality but, we pray and expect, is dodging this bullet for now. I gave up ocean swimming and beaches for him, a Colorado boy who prefers mountains and horses to seagulls and sand fleas. However, my kids are planning a "destination" 75th birthday party for me in Asbury Park for next May. Wish I had picked Ocean Grove. Your story is heart-wrenching. Just like life.

Irwin Epstein's avatar

Oh Peggy. Thank you so much. You of all people know how hard this all is and how much strength it takes to be both strong when you need to be and vulnerable at the same time. And please send my best to that tenderhearted and honest professor. There aren’t that many of us. My memoir has made me persona non grata at the school in NYC in which I taught for 35 years but it had a fantastic launch at the Faculty Club at the University of Melbourne. Could I make this shit up?

Have a great 75th. 💐

Jeanne Malmgren's avatar

Always good to hear from Irwin, and this one broadens the story we knew of his dear Fran. Thank you for a sweet delight of a story, even with the sadness of letting go. Blessings to you, Irwin, and I hope you find the perfect buyer for that adorable cottage. May the love live on!

Irwin Epstein's avatar

Thank you Jeanne. It’s always nice to hear from you.

I did find an immediate buyer. And like Fran, she said, “I love it, we’ll take it—as is.” The closing was on a Friday and she and her bf moved in that weekend. We’ve never met but I asked our broker to pass on this to her so she knows more about its history and carries that forward. Nothing makes me happier. 🙏🏻🪷

Jeanne Malmgren's avatar

Oh, Irwin, PERFECT to send this piece to the cottage buyer. That will mean so much to them, and they can honor Fran's memory as they make their own memories there. I love it.